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These are my ramblings in an attempt try and understand my Dissociative Identity Disorder. Thank you for reading my blog and I hope that together we can come to a better understanding of the human mind. If you have any questions or comments you are more than welcome to add them to my blog, or to email me. I would love to hear from you.
19 September, 2015
No One Can Love Me!
No one can love me! Those words brought peace to our system today. Acceptance brings relief. Once you know you are unlovable there is no need to fight. No need to look for love. It won't come, you don't deserve it. It's over. There is no love for you in this world. It is a hard world and so few people care and even fewer really see or care. Unconditional love and acceptance regardless of what we do, has never been our lot. I'm tired of fighting. Fighting to feel love. Fighting to give love and show others that they count. Fighting to be someone i feel i am not. Maybe it is just not our lot in this life. Maybe we were never born for this. Maybe we unable to be loved, somehow cursed. Cursed to watch it, and give it, but never really feel it. Would we know what it felt like anyway? I think we would, because it would be different to everything else we have known. But maybe it is not our way. Maybe it is not for the dammed, those lost before birth into a world they will never escape. Maybe we can just wish and hope and long, for that which we will never obtain. It's easier to think we are unlovable than to accept that someone could love us but never truly has. But deep deep down, there is a small quiet desperate voice that says,..............'can you love me? '