work to be done

We told the boys about our separation on Friday. It was not an easy thing to do. My youngest was in shock and it took him a couple of days to come back to himself. I can cope with stuffing up my life but it is never easy to do some thing that is gong to affect my boys lives negatively. The hunt now goes on for a place to live and a realtor to sell our house. On the DID side of things, everyone has gone  into lock down. We are not dealing with any past issues, all we can do at the moment is focus on the world and issues around us, and get through. In some ways it feels easier as only the most functioning alters are out at the moment. We think clearly, have a good memory and achieve things. But I know so much more is missing. I do worry about my ability to cope once I move out, and what will happen, but for now it is all about getting the things we need done achieved. Some days we do get so tired and lonely, and I want to just cry.