Losing time is when we dissociate to the point where we switch so a different alter is in control and we are not aware or conscious of what is going on while they are in control. After sometime we can switch back. These times can go on for years or moments or anything in between. I have heard stories of multiples who come back from lost time years later to find their life is totally different, as the alter who was in charge all those years changed their life completely. Imagine sitting on the couch watching TV and then seeming to 'come too' in a shopping center and its a week later. You have no idea how you got there or what you have been doing, and the last time you were conscious you were home watching TV. Did you go to work, who has been looking after the kids etc. It is very scary and probably one of the worst part of having DID. But again it is a survival technique for DID.
Earlier on in my Blog I mentioned that I don't lose time, I was wrong. I don't lose a lot of time but I do lose it. I have lost it driving my car. For me it is like suddenly coming out of blackness to reality. It is very scary, but when it happened in my car, I was still driving fine and heading down the road as if nothing had happened. It was not, however, that same piece of road I had been on minutes ago.
It is not uncommon to have someone in a system who will watch what is going on with the body and will help ease the fear and panic after a time loss by showing or telling what has just happened. Therefore making it seem as if time was not really lost at all. Stress can increase times of time loss, triggers are also causes. For some it is very frequent, for others, not so much, but either way it is part of the DID experience.
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