Merry Christmas

It's that time of year again. Christmas. The time of year when families get together and eat and laugh and enjoy each others company. Well, in a Disney movie maybe, but not if you come from an abusive family environment. We are not that keen on Christmas especially now our boys are older. Our only other family is our mother, and while our relationship with her is improving, it still has a long way to go. Christmas was always a stressful time. Trying to make sure everything was perfect. Around Christmas child abuse usually increases, as men feel unsettled with their lives, they go to find comfort with a child. This makes Christmas a highly triggering time for most survivors. We suffer terribly with loneliness at this time. The feeling that everyone else has family but we don't and once again we face life with only ourselves to depend on. The boys are of to spend time with their father for 5 days on Christmas day. Diamonds is away for 4 days and gets back Christmas eve. She will be spending Christmas day with her family so we won't get to see her on the day. We are trying to do our best to keep busy and hope the loneliness doesn't hit too hard, but at the end of the day when all us said and done, we return to one true fact. We have only us to truly depend on, we are our family.