Coping but not! ( triggering)

We are many, we do not live as one, we function  for your benefit because you cant understand our world. You are not like us and you struggle to see our pain. There are times when I despise you, with your innocence and freedom. Your laughter and your sunshine. My hatred runs deep, not just for you and your life of innocence and joy, but for those who came before you. I wish you were not here and I could be alone. Alone to suffer in my silence. Without you in my space demanding protocols and action I do not have the time for. My world is so different to yours. My pain runs too deep. I wish that you could see it, but you wouldn't last, you wouldn't cope. You would fade and hide. There are no tears where I am, only pain, anger and hatred. We have taken too much. It is time that it is over. I want it over, when will this all end.