It's in the background. It's in the words you don't hear, the whispers. No matter how hard you try, there is that voice that reminds you. ...you are worthless!
You work so hard to belive a new truth. To try to accept you may have value, and then just when you think you may be getting there, that voice reminds you, ' you are fooling yourself, you will never have value'. Without a second thought you accept the words they say. After all if they were wrong, your life would be better. People would like you. You would have more friends.
It doesn't leave, it nags at you. Finding you at your weakest. Hitting you when you are down. It is merciless, unrelenting, and once again you wonder why you are even here.
One little voice. One little whisper, with so much power.
when I was in the clinic the therapist told me to write down all those negative sentences of those voices - and then try to find sentences that pull those words into something positive, like: "you are useless" to "I might not be able to succeed in everything but there is a lot that I manage to get done, I have lots of abilities"... maybe that might help? We wrote it all down, cut the phrases out and stuck them on a big colourful paper.... Just to be able to look at it when those whispery voices are getting too loud again...
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