Danny and Me!

Hi my name is Daniel, and I like to help people. I like to be a bit like a super hero and swoop in and save people from what they are going through. I don't really get why we have to let people do it for themselves sometimes and I just want to make it better. I just want to fix it. people need me and they need my help. I am 13 and I want to feel safe and for others to be safe too. I want to try so hard to help them. I don't care if I get cold or I don't sleep, that's not important to me. I just want to help and make it better. I am alone and that's OK, but people need me and I need them too. I need to save them so there will be good in the world. There has to be good in the world.

Hi my name is Danny and I am 12, I like to ride bikes and play with cars, I would like to be a mechanic some day. I don't like children or toys they are for little kids and I am a man now. lol hehehehe. I have a personality and I want to be free. But I can't because I am stuck in here where the girls are, and with her ( the body).
I like this face because it is funny.

So Tired

So much has happened lately, its exhausting. Miss 16 has moved out after breaking up with Mr 16. The house seems emptier without her but also calmer. I miss the female company but I know it is easier for my son to get over the relationship this way.
Mr 16 is having mental health challenges himself and we are spending time at the hospital and constantly watching him to make sure he is ok.
Diamonds is fighting her own demons and we worry constantly about how she/they are going. We are exhausted, there seems no escape from this all and we are finding ourselves feeling hopeless. Like life will never change and we will spend the rest of it fighting to survive. We feel so alone. I am tired of this life and really struggling to keep going. We need to work hard to find something we can enjoy. Its not easy. I am so tired.

Purpose

It s been so long since I have been on here. Life is so busy. About 8 months ago Mr 16's girlfriend came to live with us. Miss 15 ( as she was then) was kicked out of an abusive home and needed somewhere to stay. After unsuccessfully trying to find her other housing options we decided she could stay with us. It has been a crazy few months. Adding another member to our household has changed many things. We have moved house ( something we were planning to do anyway but really had to with an extra person in the small house) so glad we did we are much happier in this house. Because Miss 15 had been though so much with her family we quickly got her into counselling. It wasn't too long before it was reveled she is multiple too. Now 16, she is a part of our family. We spend a lot of time driving her to appointments and school, and yes she does need more of our time, but most of all there is a change in us. Before she came we had pretty much decided that our boys really didn't need or want us in their lives that much and we were often feeling pretty down and even suicidal. Once Miss 16 moved in we realized she needed us too much for us to leave. She has already lost 2 family members to suicide, we just couldn't do that to her. We had to keep fighting. Unexpectedly though it has made us more content having someone to mother and to care for in this way. We feel needed again. Its busy and stressful, and at times we struggle to get time for ourselves but at the end of the day we have a purpose again.
Having 2 multiples in the house is always interesting, complicated and at times frustrating. Mr 16 copes amazingly well but Mr 21 is not. He is talking of moving out at the end of the year.
Life feels overwhelming most of the time and I am sure we deal with more things in a week than most people would even be able to think about. Some weeks it is just head down bum up and keep going.
But we are still here, and still alive and I guess some days that is enough. I hope you are all doing ok. We miss keeping up with how many of you are reading our blog and we are sorry for the break. We will do our best to keep it up. If you have any questions or things you would like us to talk about please feel free to send them in. Take care.