Why Can't We Have Fun?

Why can't we have fun? Seriously, we struggle to have fun. If there is something fun to do we feel paralysed and all that keeps going through our head is "we can't, we can't". Is it some form of programming? If we do something fun, like joking around with friends, then someone inside tells us off and brings us back down to "normal" again. Something is not right but I can't figure out what it is. We don't even really seek out fun things to do. Any ideas anyone? We are open to suggestions. Does anyone else have this problem?

But how?

I want to tell everyone what has happened to us, I want to get it out there so that we are not holding all this to ourselves any more, I want to broadcast it on every channel for the world to see. This is what they did to me and they still roam this earth free. But will anyone really listen or care. Do people really want to know how badly one girl from Adelaide was hurt and abused. I don't think they do. When friends and family don't want too, who else is there to care.
Will we leave a mark big enough in this life to make the changes this world needs, or will we merely be another lost sole who passes into insignificance? Another child to be forgotten.
I want to make a difference, I want to make a change. But how?

Chosen

Do you have any idea the affect you have on me? Do you have any idea that our lives are entwined? They always will be. Every day you are in my heart, and every day I fear for you. I hate that I cannot protect you, that I have no power but to wait. Will you ever understand what you mean to me and how this takes its toll. Your fights are mine and mine yours. If only I could make you see, what you truly mean to me.