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These are my ramblings in an attempt try and understand my Dissociative Identity Disorder. Thank you for reading my blog and I hope that together we can come to a better understanding of the human mind. If you have any questions or comments you are more than welcome to add them to my blog, or to email me. I would love to hear from you.

24 August, 2013

Update

Things have settled down a little in our system over the last few days which is a nice change. We are still getting flashbacks but not as many. We are slowly coming to terms with the fact that there are a lot more of us in here than first thought, which is somewhat daunting.
This week we are heading off interstate for a short holiday with Diamonds. Overall it is very exciting, but different alters of course have different feelings about the trip. We have one who is very scared of flying and has already hit the panic button. (we are going to take a mild natural sedative to help her get through the flight) Most of us don't cope very well with such a big change and can feel unsettled for days. Especially as we have never been to this place before so have no idea what to expect or any memories to work with. Diamonds is well travelled and used to live there, so we are going to stick very close to her.
When we are in a crowd setting, we find we need to see the faces of everyone around us. I think this is to see if we know them and if they are safe. This can also be very exhausting to be on such high alert all the time. We have had to prepare Diamonds that we may need time alone, (even if it is in a public toilet cubicle), for 10 or so minutes, so that we can calm and recenter our selves if it all becomes too overwhelming.
This will be our first time away with Diamonds, and the longest non stop we have spent in each others presence. This too may prove to be a challenge. Lots of communication will be needed to get through it without us falling apart. Diamonds and us are used to the need to communicate well as the success of our relationship depends on constant checking in with each other. It is hard work but worth it and we are pretty much used to it now. Im off to get some work done, will hopefully have some pictures to share from the trip when we get back.

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